What is this weather?!

March 26, and the sun is slowly peaking out-I’m begging for nicer weather!!!

Yesterday was James and my 13th year together-knowing, growing, and loving. This week I finished my last mid-term, so over all I’m feeling accomplished, and ready for Spring. We all are. Our family also just went through a tremendous loss of a close family member so I’m struggling to keep it all together.

Life is precious, and powerful.

I want to keep this short and sweet- here’s a look I put together. Ladies-take a basic pair of denim and a t-shirt and make an over coat and your shoes the star of the show!

Details about my outfit can be found always on my Instagram at @kashaxmarie

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Tomboy X

It’s been forever, I know I know! It was my Spring break this past week, and all I did was stress about 1 more mid term coming Tuesday- haha

James and I go to always go to Florida every year for our Anniversary, and Avynn’s birthday as well. This year we decided to skip the vacation and reach some bigger goals.

With being on-the-go (always) I promised myself I’d do more than just “throw myself together”, but let.me.tell.you. Menswear has been my go-to since pregnancy!

I teamed up about a month ago with a brand called TomboyX . I love what their brand stands for, they embrace all shapes and sizes-they sell bras and underwear. I decided to wear my 9″ briefs in a menswear look that was so so comfy!

I loved the color of these boxers, and how soft they are. These are from their Micromodal collection! I have another pair I’ll be capturing soon. James is already fighting me for these.

Hopefully we will be seeing more of a glimpse of Spring soon-I love taking basic shoes and a basic top, and having shorts/skirt as the highlight!

Wait….Winter workouts?!

So obviously we’ve all heard of “making summer bodies in the winter” right? I really never even attempted this until after I had little babes! You know the whole no shaving in winter? Haha let’s just say I used to hibernate my workouts all winter long pre-babies.

In today’s society I swear bullying is getting worse, and self esteem is dropping lower-let me re-phrase true self acceptation is decreasing no matter how much confidence people show online. I won’t get much into that today, after all this is about outer appearance I want to focus on!

After kids not only did my day-to-day life/school/work schedules change but my eating habits/workout habits/”lack-there-of” have all gone bonkers. After Avynn, and again after Ivory I developed umbilical hernias. This made my workouts super painful and made my stomach constantly bloat. After giving birth to these huge monsters my midwife suggested for me to grab a waist trainer and train 2 hours a day to help re-build my core. After undergoing a surgery to repair 2 huge hernias in July my workouts have fluctuated.

This post is for the Mama’s, or really anyone super busy who needs alternatives. Or maybe this post is for me-to motivate, to look back and see progress.

After Avynn my stomach was terrible. I carried a 9lb 4.5 oz 21.5″ beast , and once she arrived my skin was stretched, my stomach was scarred and marked. I did core workouts and used a ton of “wraps” on my tummy and almost 2.5 years later I was seeing results but never publicly would reveal my stomach (aside from family). However, my confidence remained because I gave birth to a mix of myself and the love of my life- life’s greatest gift.

It reminded me of childhood where I remember never judging myself, never caring about anything physically aside from how skinny I was and how hard it was for me to gain weight. I remember buying boxes of Twinkie’s and housing them before bed-lol gross.

After Ivory my hernias were worse-another big babe: 9 lb 1.5oz 20.5″ thanks Jamesy

Now after Ivory, I realized how much harder life was with 2. Guys….INSANE. Two girls is like having 20 I swear it. I love it though, I’m busy, or stressing 24/7. So when I’d want to bang out a workout I’d finally get Ivory down, while Avynn destroyed her room with dolls, clothes, and anything she could steal from my room.

I soon started chopping workouts in half-then I’d throw my waist trainer on and be out-the-door.

I slowly started slipping into a depression- life, unfortunate events, and lack of workouts took over me. So the waist trainer turned to a habit. Then I had my surgery. After surgery I had 8 weeks with no lifting-yikes

Depression grew and grew, I needed a boost quick. I hurdled over all of my downfalls and slowly started workouts again. Once I started my semester in September between classes I drove home while my mom still had my girls and I killed every workout. To speed up results I started using a scar cream from Celsus . They sent it to me just in time for my surgery and I finally whipped it out.

It’s now 5 months later and my skin is finally tightening, my abs are slowly creeping through, and my surgery scars are fading beautifully-esp with a fresh spray tan

Their scar cream is used for not only scars but stretch marks and also helps with anti-aging!

I’m offering a discount for anyone interested!

However, to complete this post I have a few tips to reaching those body “wins.”

First: Accept that you’re human, but don’t use that as an excuse. I did this for too long. Telling myself “oh well, you’re never going to look better you had two kids.” This is crap. Because I’m a strong woman, I bounce back; we all do. It’s mind over matter for sure, and I wish I screamed this in the mirror 4 years ago.

Second: Make time for you! I’m extremely blessed with way too much help from my huge family. My mom, my sisters, my brother, James’ family; everyone. Since day one if I had appointments, work, school, blog events, anything: I could count on someone. Don’t be scared to ask for help, or accept help. You’re not a bad person for taking some time for you. Don’t go crazy, just take a segment of time out of your day/week to get yourself pampered, go to the gym, escape life and read a book for an hour. Mine was going home and working out before picking the girls up

Third: EAT! No seriously, too many people stay so busy they skip meals. This was 2017 in a nut shell for me. First I started working 2 jobs trying to hustle-only eating breakfast then a late dinner after 9:30pm. Then I started classes and picked on snacks between classes-you could say the coffee diet was reaaaaaal. However I soon realized the only words out of my mouth each day was “ughh I’m so tired.” Breakfast is most important, we all know that, but all day we need to snack, and eat for energy- otherwise we crash, slump, and become lazy. Common sense right? So I learned to plan ahead. Left overs are perfect lunches. Eggs with peppers and onions cooks in 6 minutes-bam. And then, grab a protein shake, this gives me more energy than any coffee!

Lastly: Find balance. It’s the hardest part of becoming a parent let me tell you. It’s a tough feeling knowing you have to rely on someone else to care for your children so you can selfishly go to school or go to work. This is why I understand why people wait until career stages to have children. Or why people marry then have children-I don’t know how single parents do it-I’m so blessed to have James. I’m so blessed for my family for helping me. However, as I said it’s tough finding balance/accepting balance. You want to dedicate all of your energy into one thing; being a good parent, but spending time away from the girls to go to class or work kills, especially knowing someone else is with them so much. Or wanting to put all of your energy into taking care of your body but instead skipping meals. But we can all be selfish. Again, take an hour a day to do something for yourself.

I find flexibility in motherhood. I won’t workout every day, but I find 5 Days. I throw some Celsus on my stomach, clip on my waist trainer and keep it on for a few hours after my workouts. Not only has my waist trainer helped with workouts, but after workouts it makes my stomach feel so much better. You have to find what works best, what boost helps results come quicker. I always thought it was harder to workout than to be lazy but I was 100% wrong. It’s way harder being lazy. Because all the results we’ve built up, restarts and it’s 10x harder to step back up again.

No white after Labor Day?!

Hey! As always, I’ve taken a huge step back from this. I just pushed through mid terms, got super sick, then came my birthday and Halloween! I just turned 26 and I feel like a grandma….seriously I was in bed by 11 that night haha 

Overall though, I’ve been so proud of myself to be able to balance. I’ve balanced two crazy girls at home, 5 classes, weddings, other events, and still finding time for workouts and blogs! 

I received this outfit that was completely out-of-my-element, I originally wore it on my birthday, and totally felt like a nun. The usual me would take the shirt and pair it with a different bottom, or vice versa, buttttt I took the leap and went all out with all-white-everything.

I’ll keep this short and sweet! You can find this set at Style We 

Xx, 4O1FIERCE 

Triple threat 

Happy Wednesday! Happy October! I say this every time but it’s seriously been forever. I’m a busy bee, 5 classes is no joke, with 2 girls is even more hilarious: but needless to say I’m killin it! 

I’m working for an amazing brand right now (from home which is ideal), so I promised myself I would blog more and have the girls involved. I’ve gotten so many requests for the girls to be in the spotlight again and honestly how could I resist?! 

Avynn loves her photo taken, but Ivory was a whole different story haha- James was a trooper he kept chasing her then putting her in her “spot” and running out of the frame quickly


Cheetah/leopard made its way back on shelves and I’m not mad. I feel a sense of power wearing it, it’s so bold. The girls are animals so this was perfect for them 


I’ve had this top for years, and also I’m loving how faux leather is back! 

I tried to dress down my look with these slippers from Simply Vera Wang

Also, I love that I can dress this skirt up or down, with a blouse or a loose tee! 


Ave was in such a good mood she kept saying “Mama remember we used to blog when Ivory was in your belly?” Haha

I used to do anything to keep us out of the house while I was still pregnant  but having 2 girls is like having 20, I swear 

We grabbed some pretty cute shots, and how cute are their matching skirts from Old Navy?!You guys will also see a lot more of this bag! I’ve teamed up with Lily Jade-this is the chic-est diaper bag I’ve ever seen- obsessed! I’ll be posting on Instagram some amazing features it has!  

I’ll keep it short and sweet today- but I wanted to throw red into this blog set to symbolize the strength and power of family. Vegas is still in my thoughts and prayers, and it’s been so hard for me to shake. Hold your family and friends extra tight, all we need to spread is love more than anything. 

Power 

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Growing up whenever I would hear the word power/powerful I always thought it meant how strong someone was, and that to me was always physical. Years later power to me doesn’t just boil down to muscles, haha

I went through a huge funk this past year, and it allowed me to get back in touch with me. My passions, who I am, and what I love. Growing up I loved to read and write. I was super late in the game reading Girl Boss about 8 months ago, but let me tell you I’ve re-read it a thousand times; even just small excerpts to remind myself to never give up during those times when my overthinking brain screamed louder than my open heart.

Luckily I’ve been anything but negative lately, something has come over me and it feels so amazing! I picked up “Power of Broke” by Daymond John ( for those of you who don’t know Daymond he is the “people’s shark” from ABC’s Shark Tank).

To me, Daymond isn’t just the “people’s shark.” I remember growing up my older sister would rock FUBU and whenever she’d sleep out at a friends house I would steal her clothes and wear them…growing up with sisters man haha

So Daymond has always been a HUGE inspiration for me, mostly because of the fact that I could relate to him 100%. I remember years ago I was reading an article about him and his journey, and the one point that’s always stuck with me was his ability to build a brand out of his house-sleeping in a sleeping bag on the floor right nearby some clothes he had to ship out.

This image never left my head. I’ve received handfuls of advice about entrepreneurship from plenty of experienced people, bitter people, and helpful ones; but I’ve always felt they’ve never been delt my cards, felt my footsteps. And man when I tell you, Daymonds book is speaking levels. I’ve screamed YASSSS outloud so many times, and smiled twice as much.
I am the Power of Broke. Since day 1 nothing, ever has been handed to me. This is 100% the reason why success never came easy. I’ve always been lazy with excuses and doubts; telling myself nothing could ever happen for me. I’ve never felt things were in reach, or even at the end of the tunnel for that matter. This was until I became a mom. At first I let life beat me up a little, then I grabbed the gloves. Now I am hungry.

Never in my life have I ever felt so powerful, and a huge reason for this is because of the push. I’ve been pushing out of my comfort zone, and having faith in prayer. But guys, prayer is only so powerful ’til backed with action.

I’m on my way to a meeting that will push something I’ve been working on, and I can’t wait to share with you all. Reading to me, alters reality for me, well actually it puts reality back into perspective. Hearing multiple success stories has overwhelmed me with faith.

I want to thank you Daymond for your down-to-earth real advice. It’s such a breath of fresh air to hear reassuring words from someone who never let money change him. Just know you pulled me out of a depression-you gave no false hope, just reality. So I thank you. You hit it right on the head when you described the power I hold as an individual in my circumstances. The power of positivity is really what this generation needs.

If you guys haven’t had the chance to read, and you’re one of those who have been in a rut lately; he got you!

And in honor of power, you all know Red is the perfect symbolic color! I chose to mix pink and powerful. Pink was a huge theme of my first collection I dropped; then I snatched it back. I wasn’t ready, but now more than ever I feel so powerful. Ladies don’t be scared to colorblock-although James wasn’t feelin’ this look at first, he came around haha


Saturday Blues 

It’s been a long summer for me. I’m just now hitting 7.5 weeks post-op from my hernia surgery and lawddddd what a recovery. As always recommended please do your research before you agree to procedures! No complaints here-but I thought I’d bounce-back quicker!

And summertime is all about feeling comfortable, cooling down, and making memories. So I finally decided to throw on a bathing suit I’ve had for months
I love the denim-on-denim, since childhood so let me tell you-it will always be my go-to!

It took a lot for me to post these photos of my stomach, because I’m not fully healed, and I never expose it! But hey, beauty is skin deep guys, better to be natural and embrace your flaws then to be like the rest of ’em- photoshopped.  My goal is to actually get to the beach before I start classes! I hope you’re all enjoying the last of your summer, I’ll keep this short and sweet! 

Love who you are, fix things you want to improve, but realize you’re more than what you look like. It’s hard to feel comfortable with my stomach showing because it’s been my biggest weakness for years. But I’m working on it, and for now I realize I’ve held two huge and beautiful baby girls in this body, and I have the best man who loves me for me. I’m happy and healthy and that’s what counts. I remind myself of all of these blessings every single day, and this has helped me move past my looks and towards my goals! 

Xx, 4O1FIERCE 

No more roots! Ft. #Nutrafol 

Since I was younger Wednesdays have always been my favorite day of the week, I think mostly because I was halfway done, and felt accomplished! Looking forward to the weekend was obvious, and telling myself I ‘got through’ the beginning of the week made me confident! 

Who doesn’t love feeling great about themselves right? It’s very rare these days, but let me tell you, although a lot of confidence focuses on outer appearance and outer imagery; I feel true confidence has to excel from our inner! 

I’ve been so happy lately, landing a dream job, enrolling back in school, and becoming so proud that I am soon to be a mother of a 4 year old. Guys A FOUR YEAR OLD, haha – We did it! 

A few months back I was given the opportunity to review a supplement from a company who noticed how platinum my hair was. Being blonde is the biggest addiction. The most damaging process is usually followed by a HUGE smile though! 

After keeping up with my bold-platinum-look throughout my entire pregnancy with Ivory, I unfortunately (but obviously) had to chop my locks! 

The outcome was bright, crisp, and chic! Here is what it looked like! 


I decided to start the Nutrafol hair vitamins as soon as I had fresh hair, in order to track my hair growth results! 

As the bottle indicated, I took 4 capsules a day with food! I feel it’s always most important and beneficial with food, as I did with my Prenatal vitamins! 

I received 2 bottles and just two weeks into the first bottle I noticed insane results! My nails were super hard, long, and had the whitest tips! But most importantly my roots started peeking through-I was so shocked! 

Don’t get me wrong, everyone’s hair grows at different rates but after finishing my capsules I was growing strong, smooth hair! 

I could not be happier with my results look at this!!! 


                           ROOTS.FOR.DAYS!!! 

I had to go visit my favorite girl Alexa! She’s given me my perfect shade since over 3 years ago when I decided to go platinum-silver! 

You can see all of her work and give her a follow over at Complex Beauty !! 

After we discussed all of my hair goals I’ve never left the salon more satisfied! 

 Look at this length! And can’t forget to brag about how beautiful this icy shade is! 


These results are from 8 weeks, taking 4 capsules a day as I’ve mentioned! My hair did justtttt touched my shoulders before!! 

​Healthy hair, skin, and nails are the top necessities that make any woman happy! My nails look like acrylics without the damage and cost! 
Head over to Nutrafol to start your journey with confidence! 

What can people expect to see from you in the future?

In the near future I hope to continue to build my portfolio! 2015 will be a huge comeback for me! It is a chance to prove to myself all over again that I can keep checking goals off of my dream list. Until my dreams become reality, I can’t give up. I am working on many projects currently to increase my exposure, because word of mouth is an amazing concept. I want to reach out to as many individuals as possible, to release my message. I hope my message shouts “WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL, WE ARE ALL STRONG, WE ARE ALL UNIQUE” I am working on personalizing my career. Too many people outside of the industry and many people inside the industry feel modeling careers strive for attention, and most times negative attention all for the wrong reasons, I aim to change that assumption. I aim to prove that in some cases, like mine, I strive to inspire. I want to be more approachable. I want people to know my story, hear my story. I want to be relatable, I want to be your inspiration, I want to help generations grow. I want to see change! Through whatever dreams someone may have whatever goals they may strive for; I want to be the voice and help people push through their hard times in order to help them reach their ultimate happiness, to become confident. So welcome to …..#4O1FIERCE -> My networking site which will combine all of my social media accounts, with constant updates and the ability to connect with me, because “who uses Facebook anyways?” haha, My site will be proof that sometimes the fiercest dream comes from the smallest state. STAY TUNED y’all xo!

toast

A toast to new beginnings!