Wait….Winter workouts?!

So obviously we’ve all heard of “making summer bodies in the winter” right? I really never even attempted this until after I had little babes! You know the whole no shaving in winter? Haha let’s just say I used to hibernate my workouts all winter long pre-babies.

In today’s society I swear bullying is getting worse, and self esteem is dropping lower-let me re-phrase true self acceptation is decreasing no matter how much confidence people show online. I won’t get much into that today, after all this is about outer appearance I want to focus on!

After kids not only did my day-to-day life/school/work schedules change but my eating habits/workout habits/”lack-there-of” have all gone bonkers. After Avynn, and again after Ivory I developed umbilical hernias. This made my workouts super painful and made my stomach constantly bloat. After giving birth to these huge monsters my midwife suggested for me to grab a waist trainer and train 2 hours a day to help re-build my core. After undergoing a surgery to repair 2 huge hernias in July my workouts have fluctuated.

This post is for the Mama’s, or really anyone super busy who needs alternatives. Or maybe this post is for me-to motivate, to look back and see progress.

After Avynn my stomach was terrible. I carried a 9lb 4.5 oz 21.5″ beast , and once she arrived my skin was stretched, my stomach was scarred and marked. I did core workouts and used a ton of “wraps” on my tummy and almost 2.5 years later I was seeing results but never publicly would reveal my stomach (aside from family). However, my confidence remained because I gave birth to a mix of myself and the love of my life- life’s greatest gift.

It reminded me of childhood where I remember never judging myself, never caring about anything physically aside from how skinny I was and how hard it was for me to gain weight. I remember buying boxes of Twinkie’s and housing them before bed-lol gross.

After Ivory my hernias were worse-another big babe: 9 lb 1.5oz 20.5″ thanks Jamesy

Now after Ivory, I realized how much harder life was with 2. Guys….INSANE. Two girls is like having 20 I swear it. I love it though, I’m busy, or stressing 24/7. So when I’d want to bang out a workout I’d finally get Ivory down, while Avynn destroyed her room with dolls, clothes, and anything she could steal from my room.

I soon started chopping workouts in half-then I’d throw my waist trainer on and be out-the-door.

I slowly started slipping into a depression- life, unfortunate events, and lack of workouts took over me. So the waist trainer turned to a habit. Then I had my surgery. After surgery I had 8 weeks with no lifting-yikes

Depression grew and grew, I needed a boost quick. I hurdled over all of my downfalls and slowly started workouts again. Once I started my semester in September between classes I drove home while my mom still had my girls and I killed every workout. To speed up results I started using a scar cream from Celsus . They sent it to me just in time for my surgery and I finally whipped it out.

It’s now 5 months later and my skin is finally tightening, my abs are slowly creeping through, and my surgery scars are fading beautifully-esp with a fresh spray tan

Their scar cream is used for not only scars but stretch marks and also helps with anti-aging!

I’m offering a discount for anyone interested!

However, to complete this post I have a few tips to reaching those body “wins.”

First: Accept that you’re human, but don’t use that as an excuse. I did this for too long. Telling myself “oh well, you’re never going to look better you had two kids.” This is crap. Because I’m a strong woman, I bounce back; we all do. It’s mind over matter for sure, and I wish I screamed this in the mirror 4 years ago.

Second: Make time for you! I’m extremely blessed with way too much help from my huge family. My mom, my sisters, my brother, James’ family; everyone. Since day one if I had appointments, work, school, blog events, anything: I could count on someone. Don’t be scared to ask for help, or accept help. You’re not a bad person for taking some time for you. Don’t go crazy, just take a segment of time out of your day/week to get yourself pampered, go to the gym, escape life and read a book for an hour. Mine was going home and working out before picking the girls up

Third: EAT! No seriously, too many people stay so busy they skip meals. This was 2017 in a nut shell for me. First I started working 2 jobs trying to hustle-only eating breakfast then a late dinner after 9:30pm. Then I started classes and picked on snacks between classes-you could say the coffee diet was reaaaaaal. However I soon realized the only words out of my mouth each day was “ughh I’m so tired.” Breakfast is most important, we all know that, but all day we need to snack, and eat for energy- otherwise we crash, slump, and become lazy. Common sense right? So I learned to plan ahead. Left overs are perfect lunches. Eggs with peppers and onions cooks in 6 minutes-bam. And then, grab a protein shake, this gives me more energy than any coffee!

Lastly: Find balance. It’s the hardest part of becoming a parent let me tell you. It’s a tough feeling knowing you have to rely on someone else to care for your children so you can selfishly go to school or go to work. This is why I understand why people wait until career stages to have children. Or why people marry then have children-I don’t know how single parents do it-I’m so blessed to have James. I’m so blessed for my family for helping me. However, as I said it’s tough finding balance/accepting balance. You want to dedicate all of your energy into one thing; being a good parent, but spending time away from the girls to go to class or work kills, especially knowing someone else is with them so much. Or wanting to put all of your energy into taking care of your body but instead skipping meals. But we can all be selfish. Again, take an hour a day to do something for yourself.

I find flexibility in motherhood. I won’t workout every day, but I find 5 Days. I throw some Celsus on my stomach, clip on my waist trainer and keep it on for a few hours after my workouts. Not only has my waist trainer helped with workouts, but after workouts it makes my stomach feel so much better. You have to find what works best, what boost helps results come quicker. I always thought it was harder to workout than to be lazy but I was 100% wrong. It’s way harder being lazy. Because all the results we’ve built up, restarts and it’s 10x harder to step back up again.


Back in all black

Yikes, embarrassing how long it’s been since I’ve logged in here. I won’t lie, this year I’ve done so much reflecting. Reflecting pushes me away from opening up over social media ( this world is scary, people are too judgmental). Also, if this wasn’t a full time job for me (blogging), I don’t even think I’d want to “exist” on social media. But let me just say, social media for sure is so powerful. I’ve been networking with thousands of people this past year, and I can not wait to dive into 2018 with open arms. I have a ton to share and even more to experience!

With the semester ending, I’ve never felt more proud of myself to finally accomplish something great to show my girls! I’m finally one step closer to my degree-what’s even better than that? Being able to tap into my Creative outlets and continue to work on some amazing projects at home while the girls run around like crazy!

With a fresh start, of course I chopped my hair, and wanted to jump back into my blog with all-black-everything ….well aside from these white booties that I’ve been obsessing over for awhile now!

As always I’ll keep this short and sweet after saying-never ever let anyone over power your energy. Nothing for you will pass you. There’s never a “perfect time” for anything. Never put more effort lighting someone else’s flame, before first lighting yours! Actually, no : be the light, be the flame.

I allowed way too much to over power my thoughts, emotions, and energy. Then I realized wait: I’m a strong mother of two beautiful, smart, little girls. I’m in love with the most amazing best friend god could bless me with, and now I’m married to him for life. Not to ever boast, but just to remind myself; I already won. I have everything! Anything that comes next is just accomplished bonuses! Always aim for more, but never be dissatisfied with what you already hold close.

Triple threat 

Happy Wednesday! Happy October! I say this every time but it’s seriously been forever. I’m a busy bee, 5 classes is no joke, with 2 girls is even more hilarious: but needless to say I’m killin it! 

I’m working for an amazing brand right now (from home which is ideal), so I promised myself I would blog more and have the girls involved. I’ve gotten so many requests for the girls to be in the spotlight again and honestly how could I resist?! 

Avynn loves her photo taken, but Ivory was a whole different story haha- James was a trooper he kept chasing her then putting her in her “spot” and running out of the frame quickly

Cheetah/leopard made its way back on shelves and I’m not mad. I feel a sense of power wearing it, it’s so bold. The girls are animals so this was perfect for them 

I’ve had this top for years, and also I’m loving how faux leather is back! 

I tried to dress down my look with these slippers from Simply Vera Wang

Also, I love that I can dress this skirt up or down, with a blouse or a loose tee! 

Ave was in such a good mood she kept saying “Mama remember we used to blog when Ivory was in your belly?” Haha

I used to do anything to keep us out of the house while I was still pregnant  but having 2 girls is like having 20, I swear 

We grabbed some pretty cute shots, and how cute are their matching skirts from Old Navy?!You guys will also see a lot more of this bag! I’ve teamed up with Lily Jade-this is the chic-est diaper bag I’ve ever seen- obsessed! I’ll be posting on Instagram some amazing features it has!  

I’ll keep it short and sweet today- but I wanted to throw red into this blog set to symbolize the strength and power of family. Vegas is still in my thoughts and prayers, and it’s been so hard for me to shake. Hold your family and friends extra tight, all we need to spread is love more than anything. 


Mid-week Metallics

                                Hey hey!!
I’m already half way through my second week of classes-so I have bragging rights right now haha 

Wednesday’s have always been my favorite day of the week, mid-way through, and something always made me feel so accomplished waking up Wednesday mornings! Sadly this means September is half way gone, and summer is fading. This is my time for transition outfits: where I take choices and combine seasons. This usually happens in layers- that is why I loooooove Fall; L A Y E R S!!!

A friend of mine who I actually haven’t seen in years reached out to me explaining she just opened her first boutique! I was so excited for her and she sent me some goodies! Because I under went surgery this summer I honestly think I’ve been in a bathing suit maybe 5x. 

She sent me a few 1 pieces, and this one fit best ( although I never show the full details since I refuse to expose my stomach right now). I’ve recently also been rocking a pair of sunnies from her boutique as well, they can be seen on my Instagram in my most recent photos! At @kashaxmarie . 

Anyways, I love that the metallic one piece matched my metallic booties I snagged a few months back from ZARA . 

I feature these in a lot of photos because they remind me of a pair of rose gold metallic flats I had years ago, and I’m so glad my love for futuristic fashion is making a small spot light. 

I wore these to class yesterday and got stopped by so many girls! One told me, “this outfit is confident,” haha

You can find similar booties everywhere like Here …. Here …. Here ( I tried to give you guys some versatility)! 

Denim-on-denim will never stop (forewarning you now), so of course I took advantage of this once again as you can see. I treated the swim suit as a body suit which pictured looks like a bralette. 

You can find her boutique on Instagram at @24kclothing_ ( you will see more from her line on my Instagram)!

Next I wanted to talk about this jacket I’ve showcased a few times! Another friend of mine owns this company Jypsy! I’ve blogged about this brand in the past (I styled a red Adidas Jypsy bomber). 

I’m obsessed with this acid wash “Cotton Candy” jean jacket! I’ve been trying so hard to embrace color in my wardrobe! 

You can find/follow this brand here at @Jypsy.life 

As you can see in this photo 

my hair has some waves; I’ve been mentioning in several posts now that I’ve teamed up full-time with L’Ange Hair <—— that link gives you my insane discount code. I’ve never been the type to obsess over my hair, but it’s been so soft and fluffy! 

Feel free to ask me any questions about our products! To achieve the wavy look above I used the 25mm (1inch) Titanium blush wand! I can give you half off -like I said insaneeeee

I chose to layer my outfit to transition these summer-like pieces. My spray tan has faded, and my metallic sunnies went missing ; but overall this look was comfy and confident haha 



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Growing up whenever I would hear the word power/powerful I always thought it meant how strong someone was, and that to me was always physical. Years later power to me doesn’t just boil down to muscles, haha

I went through a huge funk this past year, and it allowed me to get back in touch with me. My passions, who I am, and what I love. Growing up I loved to read and write. I was super late in the game reading Girl Boss about 8 months ago, but let me tell you I’ve re-read it a thousand times; even just small excerpts to remind myself to never give up during those times when my overthinking brain screamed louder than my open heart.

Luckily I’ve been anything but negative lately, something has come over me and it feels so amazing! I picked up “Power of Broke” by Daymond John ( for those of you who don’t know Daymond he is the “people’s shark” from ABC’s Shark Tank).

To me, Daymond isn’t just the “people’s shark.” I remember growing up my older sister would rock FUBU and whenever she’d sleep out at a friends house I would steal her clothes and wear them…growing up with sisters man haha

So Daymond has always been a HUGE inspiration for me, mostly because of the fact that I could relate to him 100%. I remember years ago I was reading an article about him and his journey, and the one point that’s always stuck with me was his ability to build a brand out of his house-sleeping in a sleeping bag on the floor right nearby some clothes he had to ship out.

This image never left my head. I’ve received handfuls of advice about entrepreneurship from plenty of experienced people, bitter people, and helpful ones; but I’ve always felt they’ve never been delt my cards, felt my footsteps. And man when I tell you, Daymonds book is speaking levels. I’ve screamed YASSSS outloud so many times, and smiled twice as much.
I am the Power of Broke. Since day 1 nothing, ever has been handed to me. This is 100% the reason why success never came easy. I’ve always been lazy with excuses and doubts; telling myself nothing could ever happen for me. I’ve never felt things were in reach, or even at the end of the tunnel for that matter. This was until I became a mom. At first I let life beat me up a little, then I grabbed the gloves. Now I am hungry.

Never in my life have I ever felt so powerful, and a huge reason for this is because of the push. I’ve been pushing out of my comfort zone, and having faith in prayer. But guys, prayer is only so powerful ’til backed with action.

I’m on my way to a meeting that will push something I’ve been working on, and I can’t wait to share with you all. Reading to me, alters reality for me, well actually it puts reality back into perspective. Hearing multiple success stories has overwhelmed me with faith.

I want to thank you Daymond for your down-to-earth real advice. It’s such a breath of fresh air to hear reassuring words from someone who never let money change him. Just know you pulled me out of a depression-you gave no false hope, just reality. So I thank you. You hit it right on the head when you described the power I hold as an individual in my circumstances. The power of positivity is really what this generation needs.

If you guys haven’t had the chance to read, and you’re one of those who have been in a rut lately; he got you!

And in honor of power, you all know Red is the perfect symbolic color! I chose to mix pink and powerful. Pink was a huge theme of my first collection I dropped; then I snatched it back. I wasn’t ready, but now more than ever I feel so powerful. Ladies don’t be scared to colorblock-although James wasn’t feelin’ this look at first, he came around haha


Saturday Blues 

It’s been a long summer for me. I’m just now hitting 7.5 weeks post-op from my hernia surgery and lawddddd what a recovery. As always recommended please do your research before you agree to procedures! No complaints here-but I thought I’d bounce-back quicker!

And summertime is all about feeling comfortable, cooling down, and making memories. So I finally decided to throw on a bathing suit I’ve had for months
I love the denim-on-denim, since childhood so let me tell you-it will always be my go-to!

It took a lot for me to post these photos of my stomach, because I’m not fully healed, and I never expose it! But hey, beauty is skin deep guys, better to be natural and embrace your flaws then to be like the rest of ’em- photoshopped.  My goal is to actually get to the beach before I start classes! I hope you’re all enjoying the last of your summer, I’ll keep this short and sweet! 

Love who you are, fix things you want to improve, but realize you’re more than what you look like. It’s hard to feel comfortable with my stomach showing because it’s been my biggest weakness for years. But I’m working on it, and for now I realize I’ve held two huge and beautiful baby girls in this body, and I have the best man who loves me for me. I’m happy and healthy and that’s what counts. I remind myself of all of these blessings every single day, and this has helped me move past my looks and towards my goals! 



Jypsy in the 4O1 


So I’ve been dying to connect with more lifestyle brands and when I finally jumped on the phone with founder of Jypsy Life, I fell in love! Her story was completely inspiring!

It’s always so important to understand and believe in a companies vibe and vision!

The Jypsy Life is a movement, focusing on both it’s people and growth. This is no doubt the most organic underground movement of this generation.

Everyone who has a custom-made Jypsy item has met a Jypsy and has been linked into the movement.

The company has even refused to grant access of the website to the general public.

The Jypsy Life is the wanderlust of mind, fashion, art, relationships and celebration.

Getting lost in our lives on purpose serves a purpose and in the end we as Jypsies realize the best things in life were never the things we can touch, but the things we feel!

I never planned to become a mother of 2 at 25 years old, but that’s what life’s journey is really about, the unexpected. We get thrown these rocks and we either catch them and stack them, scatter them, or we can choose to let them weigh us down.

I really don’t know what my life would have turned out to be, but my shifts in job titles, career, friendships, and future goals have all slowly changed and now finally are aligning.

Based on true journeys and experiences, the jypsies are nomadic people of all ages, cultures, and backgrounds that share our individual style, secrets and philosophies to eachother.

We live to inspire, to give back, to take life as a journey, and as it comes.

With another little girl on the way any day now, embracing how life has turned out for me has done nothing but humble me and fill my heart. Red is the most powerful color, I am a powerful woman. We as women, mothers, daughters, sisters, wives; we are the future. Embrace your journey, even when it feels like you’ve hit rock bottom. The grass sometimes shines greener on the other side.



From Vaca to Fiancé


I find when I’m in the best mood my words flow easier, so here I am back from Vacation and ready to ‘Journal my Journey.’ Our week in Florida was surprisingly great weather (other than a minor storm before we left). It was great seeing my grandparents, and even better watching Avynn enjoy the Sunshine State!

We had beach days, pool days, and a few days of sightseeing and Aquariums! I packed my laptop and everything to post for you all while down there, however by the end of each day I was so exhausted and in bed by 11 p.m. haha

Instead, I figured I would use my Instagram and Facebook “outlets” to give some sneak previews of some ‘mommy + me’ blogs! Now that Ave is 3 she’s obsessed with copying her momma, so most days we tried to match 😉

Instead of posting one HUGE vaca blog I figured I would start with my most favorite-Engagement Announcement! My Jamesy proposed on our 11 year Anniversary, and now I get to marry my very best friend! After so so soooo many years of ups and downs, we’ve always challenged ourselves to hash out our problems, and learn from our mistakes-which has led us to believe we will spend forever doing so. James decided to most the proposal video on Facebook, and I figured I would just leave it there for you to see instead of double-posting! I re-watch it a million times (can’t believe it’s real).

To all of you readers out there my biggest encouragement is to please please please never take advantage of your loved ones;if anything in 24 years I have learned this lesson over and over. I’m not sure why it took me so long to realize, but I always believed he was too good for me-he IS too good for me. If you find someone who never gives up on you, never let the possibility of losing them come close.

I’ve had so many nice girls from high school and one guy message me this week asking how we found “something so special.” I really didn’t go searching for James, when I least expected it, the one I least expected to “go for,” came to me. I only took the chance and said yes to a movie date, and it’s been since that night, he’s the only one I want now + forever. So many settle for less/deal with things they don’t deserve. I don’t blame those; everyone wants to be cared for. Don’t force feelings. Don’t re-paint true colors. The ones worth it will stay, others will give you a weird gut feeling. Trust your instincts. You’ll know it’s real when no one else-ever, can make you feel that secure.

Cheers to more years!




Scattered thoughts. But I am me.

I’ve slowly but surely distanced myself from my “dream world,” I used to spend every single day planning a shoot, attending a shoot, or styling for one. There were times I felt the most confident I’ve ever felt, and more times contemplating ways to better myself in order to ease the pressure of confidence, and settle into who I am and who I was becoming. There were so many people contacting me sharing that my 4o1 fierce site was entertaining, and they loved my “voice.”

I have loved to write since I can remember. It was obviously required throughout grade school, but I loved my English homework. My journalism homework; reading a book after homework. I remember so clearly going to Florida when I was about 9 years old. I brought a little journal with me for all of the Disney characters to sign in. Except, I opened it on the plane ride there. I began to vent to my journal about how scared I was to fly.

This memory so little to me became so significant to me just last week. James and I took a flight to Florida. We had a full flight, and we boarded last because we didn’t bring Avynn with us (for specific reasons). We sat in the back row of the plane right in front of the bathroom (yuck!). However, rising above the clouds always intrigued me and at almost 24 years old, I was still amazed being above something so incredible. My “routine” that I left miles and miles below the clouds. It opened my eyes completely. We pushed through some storm clouds and turbulence, all to coast through sunny, relaxed skies. All while experiencing this I realized in my head I was talking myself through the journey. Flying always made me nervous, because come on, look at the world we live in today! But at the moment I was coaching myself through it. Not with a pen in my hand, but a thought in my head. Keeping a journal and venting to a diary was always a first comfort for me. Realizing that I was now old enough to cling to James was not the only way I found comfort in my flight. Being miles and miles away from a life that I have reflected on for months-was something I really needed.

Back in Rhode Island I was going through an identity crisis. Spending 10 months sharing my body with another human being was enough to bless me for the rest of my life. It blessed my brain, and my every thought. I began reflecting too much on what I went through and this began weakening me. With words from outsiders, opinions, and financial struggle; I began to break down. Think about how much we as individuals judge ourselves. Our solution to this is either maintaining a mindset of “I don’t care what anyone thinks or says,” constantly beating ourselves up over it, or making goals to fix it. For me, I could not find peace with any option. It was all because I realized in only a quick 2 years that I’ve birthed another human, I have been re-thinking, re-tracing my every move. I now have someone who is allowed to judge me, who I am allowed to change for. I am now who she looks to.

That was enough pressure to give me a breakdown. It happened. I began to make changes to allow peace in my life.

No one is perfect, but not a lot of people can accept and admit when they fail. It wasn’t until a grown man, and someone who I very well respect, sent me an email informing me of how he and some of his co-workers enjoyed my passion for women/feminism. Little boosts from outsiders does not fuel my confidence, but instead fuels my drive to inspire. With my #breakteeth campaign my goal was to inspire those and remind those of acceptance. Who we are is slowing becoming “who we were.” Not many stay true to themselves anymore. Social media, entertainment, and society sucked all “naturals” away. Living in a lifestyle that is so close to the “real world” has made me really think; and really #Breakteeth.

My trip allowed me to spend time with my father, and hash out my childhood to make peace. My road trip home showed me trees so big; I felt so small. I felt so humble, so down-to-earth, so in touch with myself. When James and I drove through Jacksonville, we gave a meal to a homeless man who responded to us with “Jesus loves you.” Something sounding so small became so big. The homeless population always incorporates mixed emotions from the world. Some say they chose the life, some say they deserve it;others “feel bad.” Just the quick stop with this man made me think about how small my problems really are. All things I thought were crumbling from my fingers, could always be grasped, and re-built. All things that have passed me, are not for me. We have full control. I have full control. My dreams could have been reachable through my “what ifs.” But we are here today, breathing, moving, while the world spins. I can’t control what is gone, but what is left. I have had dark thoughts, and ones so bright I felt as though I was blind from the weight of my own goals.

I gave up on things I’ve once felt were so near, and now that I fell off of the ladder, I have learned to build new steps instead. Wooden ones. They will get wet and get weak. They will creak and splinter, but wood is natural, and ladders are man-made.

I have committed to filming for a very big network, and my trial is in just a short 3 weeks. I will then be re-building my portfolio with the objective of embracing what it feels to be a woman. I will actively be using my 4O1 Fierce as an outlet for all of my social media accounts.

#Breakteeth for me has just evolved. It’s not just about trying to remind women of their beauty, remind them of the goods. Sometimes we work best under pressure. For me, I do not. I do not work well when stressed. But what I can admit is that there is beauty in the break down. If you have to break down first to build yourself back up, and you realize your journey; you are already winning. Break down to then show teeth. Go through the lowest, just to smile when you’re way up.

I hope to encourage someone, anyone out there to push, climb, and build. We are so so tiny in a huge harsh world. Fulfill your passions, and even if you break down, #breakteeth